Lately I have felt so overwhelmed.  I feel like I need to start over in so many areas in my life.  It seems like total chaos.  I expressed this to my husband, and he said, “In what areas do you feel overwhelmed in?”  I explained that I felt that way in all areas.  I also went on to tell him that I did not feel like I was doing that great a job in any area in my life.  My “to-do list” could outnumber any five-year-old’s Christmas list.  It’s a feeling that I am loaded down and don’t know how to get up.  And, with my background in depression, there was a good chance that I would throw my hands up, walk to my comfortable bed, sit down, hike my legs up and pull the covers over my head.  That is what I would have done in the past.  The fact is, God has been working on me.  I haven’t been able to see it, or always necessarily prove it, but He is working.  He is helping, and He knows what is happening.  Just because at times I freeze up and don’t do what I should be doing, it doesn’t mean God stops as well.  It’s hard to understand that, even as adults.  But God is so good that He reminds us that He is working through us, changing us, bringing us closer to Him, and by answering prayers.  I was amazed by my oldest daughter as she told me she prayed for help from God with something she was struggling with.  She said that God answered her prayer and it felt like God took over her actions.  She prayed and she believed.  What faith!  God used that situation to remind us both that God is there, on our side, assisting us.  He’s not rooting for you to have trials, but He does use them for His purposes.  And, He is in the stands, cheering us on to persevere, and to not give up, and  head to bed.  Yesterday, I resisted the urge to hibernate, and let God lead me in my “to do list.”  Like I said, it is so long, and I had no idea where to start.  So, I decided to hand it over to Him.  Much to my amazement, I couldn’t believe all that I got done, including spending time with my family and friends.  He made time for all of it.  I was so surprised!  I know, I shouldn’t be, but I was that far from letting God use the 24 hours in a day His way.  It makes me wonder if God has a “to-do” list for me.  I bet His list is longer than mine!  I am a total work in progress!  His list is also most likely better than mine, so I might as well merge them.  After all, I don’t want to miss anything He has on His list for me.  There might be some more surprises in store!

“But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation.  I will sing to the Lord, for he has been good to me!!!!”  Psalm 13:5-6